In the
beginning
~Siddaleigh~
“So do you
know when you’re coming back?” I knew this would be a tough question to ask.
The answer was almost too much to bare. Walking hand-in-hand with Konner on the
shores of Clear Lake near his family’s neighborhood. I knew our time together
was limited with his team being deployed soon. I never wanted him to leave me
but he had a life as a Navy SEAL.
“I’m not
sure when I'll be back. My C.O. figured it's a quick in and out so top three to
four weeks or up to 2 months. I hope to be back by October. Right after my
birthday but before yers. I’m gonna miss ye Siddaleigh. So very much muirnín.” I wondered what he meant by
that word and as the look of confusion marred on my face, Konner explained.
“That’s
sweetheart in Gaelic. We have only known each other for 6 months and I know
without a doubt I am well on my way to being in love with ye. I’m 25
Siddaleigh, that’s an eight year age gap. Yer so young, so naïve about the
world. To me, this feels so right.”
I loved
hearing the Irish accent he had. It sent tingles down my spine. His voice was
deep, strong and firm. Not really melodic like some accents can be but it was
beautiful. Especially when he spoke his language to me. I didn't know anything
he had told me but sometimes when we went out or just relaxed at our spot on
this lake, he would just talk to me in full sentences. It was a beautiful
language. I researched the country and it was just as beautiful. I promised
myself that I would go there the first chance I got.
“Konner this summer has flown by so
quickly. I know this might sound petty and selfish but I don’t want you to
leave me. Yeah, so I’m seventeen, and you might think I’m naïve and young but I
know what I feel. I know what I want. I hate this tightening feeling in my
chest and the ache that’s just waiting to settle when you leave me.”
I looked
away and when I looked up at the starry skies, the first day we met flashed in
my mind.
I had never been so embarrassed in my life.
Stuck in a never ending line at my favorite coffee shop, I looked around and
seen him reading a newspaper. His dark blonde hair had a short military cut to
it and when he caught me staring at him, my face went from peach to cherry red
real quick. Being caught red-handed ogling him, the hot hunk of perfect
masculinity winked at me! He flashed a ‘yea I saw you’ smile.
He made a bee-line right for me when
I finally made my order. I hated coffee, but their Double Chocolate Chip Frap
was to die for. Digging through my purse to find a five dollar bill, the oh-so
hot rugged piece of man-flesh tossed the counter girl a ten spot. I had to look
up to see his face, he was so tall, at least a foot to my 5’4”. He gave me another
heated, sexy smile and asked me if I wanted to sit down with him.
After only a few short months I knew
he was the one. Excitement pulsed
throughout my skin when he held me close, or when I heard his voice, so deep,
accented with a deep brogue. Now that sound, somehow a little song-like voice
made my nerve censors fire rapidly all over my body.
I felt my
eyes starting to water when Konner wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled
me in close.
“Siddaleigh.
I just received a notice of deployment in the early AM from my C.O-”
I gasped and if he hadn’t been
holding me, I definitely would have fallen to my knees. “No! No, Konner! How?
When did this happen? It’s still too soon! Were you even going to tell me?”
He steadied me in his embrace and put
a hand to wipe away the tears spilling from my eyes.
“You know my injury has been checked
and I’ve been given a clean bill of health to return. My team needs me love. Banphrionsa, please baby girl, don’t ye
shed one tear. Every tear is a knife slicing into my heart. I didn’t expect us
to be so inseparable but that’s what happened and you have to trust me, now. I
should be back before your birthday. Oh, love and what a special treat I’ll
have for ye. My little witch. So fiery, my pyro-princess. M’anam.”
I tried to
calm down, I knew it wasn’t the end of the world for him to go out on a
mission. I knew this was his life. He told me well enough about it over the
time we had together, however short.
“Don’t cry banphrionsa.
This mission will come and go so quickly. That ache ye feel now is incomparable
to mine. We can keep in touch; ye can tell me all about college. I’ll keep ye
posted with any information I am allowed to give. There will be times when I
can’t write back as quickly but I’ll keep up just the same love. I’ll always
write back and ye can take that promise to yer heart.”
He managed
to calm me with his promises and I knew in my heart that it would turn out for
the best.
~Konner~
I did not have to second guess, to
really know that I was already in love with her, despite our age difference.
With all the things I’ve seen and done since joining the Navy, then becoming a
Navy SEAL second commander , it’s
been seven years of hard ass work and if I’ve been lucky, hard play.
Meeting Sidda in that café was so
unexpected. Getting to know her, her fire and passion for her dreams, I wanted
to give her all that, and so much more. I felt so complete when looking in
Siddaleigh’s eyes, seeing the innocence and yet determination that stirred up a
spirit so fierce. I knew she wasn’t ready to hear it but I just couldn’t stop
talking. Whenever I’m with her, it was like I could talk her straight to the
moon. We talked about meeting the others parents when I came back. Never
thought I’d be nervous meeting a girls’ parents but somehow this, this was
important. I had to get my shit together and show them I could love her and
love her well for the rest of our lives.
“Siddaleigh,
I know this might sound crazy but I know yer the one. Each and every day it
only gets clearer and stronger for me.”
I had no
problem waiting for her. The previous months while I was recuperating an
injured shoulder, I was practically bored out of my mind until I saw her. She
made a massive impact on my thoughts about life and what I really wanted out of
it. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. Looking back on the day I
met her was so fresh in my mind.
I was only two months out in injured
leave with at least six more to go until I get the all clear. Taking a damn
round in the back shoulder was a bitch and I hated staying stagnant. Luckily
for me, athair sent me on some recon for his security business.
I was supposed to meet with an
informant in twenty minutes, and it was only 0810. Thank God I was meeting her
close enough to where I could get a shot of caffeine ‘cause Christ, being up
all night looking over clients security systems made me irritatingly cranky.
I was reading the sports section,
damn Dynamos killed another one, and drinking a black with an extra shot of
espresso when I felt eyes on me. Not seeing anything in my peripherals’, I
slowly shift my newspaper down. That’s when I saw her. Fresh, looked right out of high school
fresh. God, practically a baby. That didn’t stop my dick from getting semi
erect. I’m a disgusting pervert looking at a girl like that. She was all
curves, though. A little on the thicker side, but with an hour glass figure.
Reminded me of Marilyn Monroe. Hair that hung down to the base of her spine,
kinda wavy and crazy curly in spots. She looked to be a hot mess. Shorts that
topped her knees, and an off the shoulder blouse in fuck me red. Of all things,
she was wearing some red Chuck Taylor’s to match.
Her tits? Stacked. Ass to die for?
Check. Her face, same color as her top. Maybe not what some people call
beautiful but where I’m from, my home country, women had curves and this young
thing had it in troves. Beautifully classic. Subtle make-up. So I flashed her a
smile to let her know I seen her staring and she quickly turned just in time to
make her order.
That was my cue. I hurried to open
my wallet and as I heard the counter girl give the girl her total, I pulled out
a ten and threw it on the counter. That’s when I noticed how small she actually
was. At least a foot from my six foot four.
I knew I couldn’t let her go without
talking to her, my meeting long forgotten and my father would understand.
Looking at
her now, I hated seeing her so upset. With the information I’m about to tell her,
she’ll be even in more distress. God why is this so hard. Saying Goodbye, even
if it’s only for a short time, was feeling my chest with lead.
So I
wrapped her in my arms and steadied my eyes on hers. This girl who took my
heart. My soul. She’s my everything and for all the love I have serving my
country, I didn’t want to leave her. Such precious cargo in my embrace.
“Siddaleigh.
I just received a notice of deployment in the early AM from my C.O.,” with
this, Sidda sobbed a refusal and an accusation of withholding the information,
which made my blood simmer. If I didn’t know it was because of how much she
wanted me to stay, I’d argue with her and set her straight. But I did know, and
seeing her tears fall was killing me to the quick.
“You know my injury has been checked
and I’ve been given a clean bill of health to return. My team needs me love. Banphrionsa, please baby girl, don’t you
shed one tear. Every tear is a knife slicing into my heart. I didn’t expect us
to be so inseparable but that’s what happened and you have to trust me, now. I
should be back before your birthday. Oh, love and what a special treat I’ll
have for ye. My little witch. So fiery, my pyro-princess. M’anam.”
My promises
seemed to calm her somewhat and I did the only thing I could do. I kissed her.
I kissed her hard. I kissed her deep. Pouring my heart into this last kiss we’d
share until I came back.
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